I am a ball of emotions right now, but I am going to try to sort through them and make this a calm version of "how I'm doing".
I have been at odds with my dad lately. I dont know what his motivation is for picking fights, laying on the sarcasm, and being quick tempered. He has asked me within just a 2 day period what the name of our restaurant is called and what Ava's middle name is. I am feeling really really unimportant. I'm feeling like what I am doing and sacrificing is of no importance. I'm feeling like his passive-aggression is not really about me or Rob or Ava or anyone, its about him. I'm wondering WHY its being spued in my direction. Hmm... I think I will write a looooong email and copy my dads side of the family. I just cant tollerate weirdness anymore.
The Rockwood Room will be opening in the near future. Probably not this weekend, but next weekend. It is moving along, but some of the guys are falling out sick. I look at some of these construction workers and wonder what they ACTUALLY DO ALL DAY. Hurry it up!
I'm 99.999% sure I dont want another baby. I dreamed about it last night, I dream about it often, but its because I am scared of something changing the path we are heading down. I am HAPPY! I LOVE that Ava is almost 4! She is so helpful, sharp, well-spoken, well ajusted, well mannered, plays nice with others always, and is my biggest fan! I love that I finally get to fuss over my hair and wardrobe! I really have not "cared" in years. Ava is in school 3 days a week, and when she's with me I am still able to do anything I could possibly want to do with/ for her or for myself. I am perfectly content.
Cant appologize for being human. I am happy, sad, angry, anxious, excited, blessed--me.
5 comments:
Aww! I think only children are the best. But then again I am one of them hehe :) can't wait to visit the rockwood room!!!!
You have every right to all those emotions. I hope you find some peace with your Dad and once the restaurant opens, I hope that things will become routine for you guys. I can't imagine the stress you must be feeling. As for having only one child, that is your choice and don't let anyone make you feel different! It is YOUR life, not theirs! Best of luck!
I'm sorry your dad's being like that. It seems like you have a very strong, very bright head on your shoulders, and I'm sure you'll be able to work everything out just fine. Good luck in all doll!
Sounds like you're having a rough time with your Dad...sorry to hear that, hope things are better soon. Im so happy for you and your family, the resturant sounds amazing!
I loved this post Stacy - glad u can be so open and honest with all of us! I agree with Heather - only children are awesome and I hope you and your dad come to peace of some kind. If u ever need to talk I'm just a phone call away! xoxoxo
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